balled up and crumpled
all the things i want to say
seem to dry up with noon sun
and the terrible dusks when all the memories
creep into empty spaces

fill my thoughts with hollow spiders
and kill me with moon rise glare
only to be reborn to suffer the same fate
when I wake
because there just isn't a way to break this cycle
to break this teetering heart that
dives off cliffs for you
just to show you love; its merit
constrained in the ether because I can't find the words
and you don't know the phrases

we misplaced the days
in the sugar start of romance
innocent enough to fool
easy enough to give into

where do i turn?
where the road splits or
where my stomach churns,
and leaves the faint trace of bile in the planted kiss

that makes up for the way we talk like nothing happened
the big grey elephant in the room
consuming all the air we use to avoid each others pitfalls

and yet despite the caves of indifference carved up inside us
there are crystals that glow with a certain miasma,
made thus through dangerous acts of love