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remembering its pieces
like silk silhouettes in black in blue
cuz your love was a beating

heart beat break bruise

shattered bones scattered the shorelines etched and stretching
far out of my reach

my anchor, my moor

one day you rotted and gave way to a box full of premonitions

heart beat break bruise

i used to love you in days when you frightened me
and days when I saw you as a living nightmare
Cursed by the lost promise
of amnesia

i used to love you
on days when i forgot you

i continued to love you behind the door
to a room where I kept my secrets
in a doll house

because you became like a doll--

there whenever i wanted  to wake you from your sleep to play

and dead when I didn't feel like thinking, when I didn't feel like having to imagine

a perfect world where you were
somewhere in reach
somewhere in your family's hopes
somewhere where you really loved me back
somewhere where you loved me enough not to leave me

heat beat break bruise; I used to love you; I never loved you

heart beat break bruise;
I am a liar.
You were a crook.

So in that i suppose is that somewhere
where we meet;
the middle grounds of entwined sin

heart beat break bruise
you have ruined me
left me shattered like the bones with their only destiny
to become part of the coral in the water
just like me, i'm gonna fade and no one will recognize me

as a silk silhouette on the shoreline

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